She also revealed that her mum watched her movies and most times she has to fly to different European countries for shooting.
"When you think of porn you think of these bright orange girls with masses of make-up on. I don't want to be like every other porn star out there. I want to be me and no-one else.' She said while being featured in a new BBC Three documentary Jade: Why I Chose Porn.
"I have watched porn online and was always fascinated and thought it was something I might get involved in.
According to Jade, it was while she was in the university she got into porn, and admits she made 'bad' movies she regrets now just because she wanted to be a big porn star.
In one of those movies, multiple men masturbated over her while she wore a plastic funnel around her neck. While on another occasion a male actor was rough with her.
"If I wanted to get a job in fashion I'd have to do an unpaid internship for a year and work five days a week unpaid full time.
"Getting into porn changed my life and made my life at university better.
"I tried so hard to make friends but I couldn't, I cried every day and had depression badly, my life was in a bad place
"Then I got into this and people were telling me I was beautiful and people wanted to know me, it brought me out of my shell and gave me confidence in myself and to believe in myself."
She started by selling pictures and videos of herself online and then she was contacted and asked to make a porn film.
She said: "I suddenly had £100 in bank account every few weeks and I could go shopping and it made me happy.
"One day I got an email through the website asking if I would like to make a porno and I was 'yes I would love to that, it sounds amazing."
"I did shoot once when I started out with a guy who was quite rough with me, the only one my mum has watched and gone you shouldn't have done that, don't do that again.
"I don't know how she found it online, originally my mum cared a lot, but since she has found out I'm not going to dodgy hotels she is more relaxed.
"If I was to have a a daughter in future I don't think I would mind her doing porn but its not something you would want of your child."
"I'm completely in control of the situation because I am a complete feminist, everything I do is all about me.
"I do these things because I want to.
Talking of her virtual reality porn film where she is flown to Barcelona, in Spain, to shoot, she said.
"What turns me on is there is a camera in front of me, it's not to do with who I am filming with just the fact I am getting filmed I really get into.
Asked why she went into porn Jade says: "My parents were strict and restrictive of everything I did that's why i rebelled and ended up how I have.
"If you let your child do what they want and be their own person she probably wouldn't make the same decisions I did.
"Any daughter I had probably wouldn't end up making porn like I did because she would be 'where is the fun in that, there is no point in me doing this if my mum is all for it."
"My ex boyfriend was all for it to start with but then I would go to shoots and he would think I was sleeping with the the photographer.
"I would rather do porn or have a boyfriend, not do both at the same time
"I'm torn between the two, I want the career and something to show for all my hard work but then I want the love life, i want the boyfriend i want the simple life.
"I want to be with someone for two, three years, and want to live with then and get a puppy together and that stuff, that's the life style I am desperate for."
"I've worked my ass off to get where i am today and it proves if i set my mind to something I can do what I want.
"I feel so much more liberated and much better body confidence than I could every have dreamed of years ago because of what I have done and am proud of.
"I'm going to be Googling myself at a very old age to see if I am still there online."
Source: BBC
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